“ Well, I totally understand what Kathryn meant about the stress involved with being The Mole. I think that the number one stress is having to lie to so many people. John came to me in trust. I had to take this trust and totally twist it to the point that it would mean that he would probably go before most of the other players. It makes it easier that this is done through a computer and I don't have to face him, but there is a part of me that hates doing this to me.

Stephanie is a nice girl also, but the best strategy is to stick close to the person that you think is the Mole. If she thinks that I am The Mole she is doing a great job of sticking with me.

At this point I think that Gina may be on to me. I think that her little "Larry is The Mole" joke in the main chat room was either a nod to Jason and/or Daniel that she thinks that I am The Mole based on my performance in our challenge group. This may have been a secret code that they are using to communicate because they ran out of messages in the message center. OR she thinks that I am The Mole and is trying to be obvious about it hoping that the other players will think "Oh if she thought that he was The Mole she wouldn't have said it out in the open like that." I really think that it was definitely some kind of strategy for her picking my name as the hypothetical mole.

This is something funny. Either John or Stephanie is lying to me about messages. John told me that he was talking to Stephanie via the message center and Stephanie said that she hasn't gotten any messages. One of them is lying.. and it kind of makes me mad. But the funny thing is that I am lying to them both without reservation and I have the gumption to get angry about them lying to me. LOL

My mission this episode was to win some money and go for the goal. I wanted to look like a total player. Stephanie slipped up in the hotel room by discussing the challenge and I accidentally went along with it. I fear that people may find this a Mole-Like activity. But it also looks like someone trying to look like the Mole that is just a player. In the challenge room I pretended to try very hard to get the producers to give us the challenge, knowing full-well that I wanted to be fined and be fined heavily. I wonder if Gina fell for it.

I actually tried to win the topic challenge, because honesty I'm nosy and wanted to see the dossiers of some of the players. LOL. When the host said that someone was kind off topic with a post I thought that it could have full-well been my post about my friend being killed in a drunk driving accident. I thought that it went along but it might not have. I figure that some others thought that it went along with it too so I made no attempt to post anything else. If it was mine.... let the challenge fail because of it and no one would be the wiser.